seek and you shall find

first of all, i need to stop crying. almost 48 hours ago i was having the time of my life partying my ass off and now, im a mess. all of the sudden, my fabulously gay boss aint that fabulous anymore, forever talking about how good designers behave and such. how GOOD designers live their life FOR design and how its part of their LIFE. i don't blame him for saying such things, cause in his eyes im most prob someone who is NOT GOOD ENOUGH. ive lost my design mojo. LOST MISSING GONE. i need it back. badly. the support system i had in sch has gone seperate ways and now im like a fucking lost sheep. i cant complain to anyone about work cause im sick of complaining and they are sick of listening to it but if i don't rant it out, im afraid i'll just quit tomorrow. damn, i suppose to be posting fun pics frm zoukout and the twins bday and all i can think of is to complain. and cry and cry and cry before anyone gets home and see me crying AGAIN. im 20, i cannot cry anymore. THATS THE FUCKING GROWN UP RULE. and i dreamt of F. i fucking dreamt of him. FUCK. i deleted his number, his FB, block him from msn and now he appears in my sleep, the only time i can have peace. what is going to happen to me? i always telling pple to be happy and be positive but what the fuck am i doing now? i cant even find a reason to wake up in the morning. i need help.

Yurko Gutsulyak

Calendar made of matches

Client: VS Energy International Ukraine

 

The idea was to create as unique a calendar so that the process of its presenting would become an outstanding event. Alongside with this, it was important to expose theidea of "energy", as it is predetermined by the name and logo of the company. Each page is a month and it looks like a comb made of matches that correspond to the days. The matches are real and the construction of the calendar is absolutely safe.

how to people actually get ideas like this? its surreal!

HL MILK SLIM.

when an old friend decided to surprise me by turning up at my void deck, i was almost moved to tears. i missed him dearly and im glad we get to meet, even at 1am in the morning. 

CHUNK FEST!

MOST FUN IN THE LONGEST TIME.
im gald my girls are homeeeeee!
party tonight! whooot!

numbers.

shann,
6 /= 9.
i apologise for 12 instead of 13 too.
NUMBERS. BLAH.

i was wide-eyed and naive, but you made me see,
that you don't the taste of honey without the sting of a bee.

neon tiger there's a lot on your mind

batman came to our block today.

fat cat.

I don't wanna be kept, I don't wanna be caged, I don't wanna be damned oh hell I don't wanna be broke, I don't wanna be saved, I don't wanna be S.O.L. Give me rolling hills so tonight can be the night that I send them up a thousand thrills Can you cut me some slack, Cause I don't wanna go back, I want the new day and age.

RAE DAY.

HAPPY TWO DECADES DEAR! :D


"Roses are green, violets are yellow, also, I'm colorblind."
-HAHAHA

like abc

its so darn easy to ask someone out.
easy for wk i suppose.
dinner with him tmr.
like after almost a year?

OMG OMG OMG

you turned me out 
and now I can't turn back

note.

patience is hitting stock exchange bottom.
i deserve better. i really do.


I woke up this morning with a funny taste in my head. Spackled some butter over my whole grain bread. Something tastes different, maybe it's my tongue. Something tastes different, suddenly I'm not so young. I'm just a stranger, even to myself. A re-arranger of the proverbial bookshelf. Don't be a fool girl, tell him you love him. Don't be a fool girl, you're not above him. I never thought I could love anyone but myself. Now I know I can't love anyone but you. You make me think that maybe I won't die alone. Maybe I won't die alone.

will you ever fight again?

TWO-O

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
THANKS FOR ALL THE WELL WISHES PEOPLE!

i wish i wish i wish for...

LESTER DAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR BOY LESTER JONAS!

I LOVE YOU! MUACK! hahahaha!

statement of the year.

for the record:

i don't hate my job.
its just SUPER NERVE WRECKING.

xoxo

ITS OFFICIAL!
IM A JR DESIGNER!

save me.

ARGHHHH!

FUCKING IRRITATING!

TIME AND TIME AGAIN!

my heart rate is 120. 

FUCK! 

how long more can i take this fuckery!

i've gotta stop my mind
working overtime
it's driving me insane
it will not let me live
always so negative
it's become my enemy

olyphant man.

cutest botak ever.

overture

it's wonderful what a smile can hide 
if the teeth shine right and it's nice and wide
it's so magical what you can keep inside 

and if you bury it deep no one can find a thing...

hes not working today :(

can we call a truce?

we both have our truths. 

if you wanna call it fun, or call it tease; i'll just separate degrees

not as we.

been out of touch!

busy busy days and nights as boss is away on reservist!

panic attacks arent gg anywhere and i really don't know what to do about it. valium is not helping as it makes me sleepy and gives me headaches. i just wish H can stop scaring me, i can really die of heart attack on day on top of my attacks.

biennale with lester.

random random stuff.

nicole just turned 6! got her a princess barbie, sleeping beauty. HAH!

party like mad on friday and had heaps of fun.

but work tmr. 

booooooooooooooooo.

Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
I'm barely making sense for now
I'm faking it 'til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as i
And not as we

im running out of reasons to go grammophone.

A & E

It's a blue, bright blue Saturday, hey hey
And the pain's starting to slip away, hey hey

I'm in a backless dress on a pastel ward that's shining
Think I want you still
But there may be pills at work

Do you really wanna know how I was dancing on the floor?
I was trying to phone you as I'm crawling out the door
I'm amazed at you, the things you say and that you don't do
Why don't you ring?

I was feeling lonely, feeling blue
Feeling like I needed you
Like I'm walking up surrounded by me
A&E

It's a blue, bright blue Saturday, hey hey
And the pain's starting to slip away, hey hey

I'm in a backless dress on a pastel ward that's shining
They gotta watch you still
But there may be pills at work

How did I get to accident and emergency?
All I wanted was you to take me out high
And I was feeling lonely, feeling blue
Feeling like I needed you
Like I hoped you'd call and hoped you'd see me
A&E

better in time

i was so numbed all day.
i didnt expect myself to feel anything till my mum drop the ultimate bomb.
she asked: " did the shuai ge go to the party ytd?"
i almost burst out crying on the spot.

and then, i went numb again.
i refuse to feel anything. not anytime soon.

i was born under unusual circumstances.

the man who is born 80 and grows younger and younger.

http://www.benjaminbutton.com/

christmas come quick!

whos that girl?

i miss my alter-ego from the school days.

whatever happened to superwoman?

kick the can, kick the can, skip and blackjack

DEAR LOD!
ITS THURSDAY AGAIN!
LIKE NAFI SAID, WE'LL ALL GONNA DIE REAL SOON.

robots in disguise

normal humans work 9 to 5. or 9-6. or whatever.
i work 930AM-930PM, clocking 10 to 12 hour days.
sometimes i wonder, if all designers are slaves to the almighty macs. sometimes i wonder, if we're all robots in disguise.

fuck it. im tired and getting gastric-spams.

ironically, i quote from marilyn's LJ:
" i don't want to be a society zombie. it's all crap and i'm slowly being buried by my own rotting flesh, turning into dust. " "the weeks have been passing tremendously fast. the days, they sometimes last for ages but when i get home, it seems to fly by so quickly that i can't even enjoy just a little bit of being home. and when it's 12, i automatically go into sleep mode. "

how very true. im gg into sleep mode now. its 11pm.

lulu restaurant

i wonder about the name. really.
imagine if my sister open a restaurant. what would she serve??
karl rice and diane fried chicken. LOL!


tts fish roe in the middle. uber-shiok.

it was a sloww night. thanks to a shann's early departure.

then it was bobby's with jj and yadah yadah yadah till 1am. whoot.

WHAT?! ITS THURSDAY.

time is zooooming past.
(tt means eunice is coming back anytime)
where the hack august went.
now the 1st week of sep is almost up.
meeting the girls tmr.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

ps: do call me more often, you have no idea how much i miss you!

they say it's 'cause the weather's not the same'

the magnificent upside down calligraphy man from chinatown:

he flips, he flops and he writes on his head with his feet.

TADAH!

favourite shop in chinatown^ find the most random stuff there!

work tmrrrrrr rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

e-vahhhhhhhhhh

the sweetest robot EVER.
im in love.

when the boss is at the gym

we photobooth love. LOL.

to the centre of the city where all roads meet

im working now.
IN A NUTSHELL...
its beside the DHL balloon.
at a design house called leap.
theres only me, my fabulously gay boss and another colleague.
been almost a month. and i kinda like it.
hope it reminds that way! :D

i want to upload photos, but the darn blogger wouldnt let me.

*it has been a difficult 24hours.
i pray that everything gets better.
shann, come home!

trouble breathing

its funny how we humans always see the negative instead of the positive, the bad instead of the good and the worst of situations instead of finding a way to solve it. maybe its just part of our selfish being to guard ourself from "danger". maybe, just maybe, its simply too hard to be happy nowadays.

what happen to "get a barbie, happy for a month" kind of happiness? i want that back.

closer.

It's a lie. It's a bunch of sad strangers photographed beautifully, and... all the glittering assholes who appreciate art say it's beautiful 'cause that's what they wanna see. But the people in the photos are sad, and alone... But the pictures make the world seem beautiful, so... the exhibition is reassuring which makes it a lie, and everyone loves a big fat lie. - alice, closer.

i'm feeling rough, i'm feeling raw, i'm in the prime of my life

caught red cliff.
I FREAKING DIDNT KNOW THERES A PART2!
how great. now i have to wait.

your royal hotness:



tony leung and his BIG nose.
dunno why his nose is super big in this movie.
is'it fake or is his character suppose to have a big nose?

ahhhows, ive been gg to interviews after interviews
have yet to find a company im comfortable with,
and those that i like? never response.
just my luck.
another round2 tmr, hopefully it'll turn out better than the previous one.

in other exciting news
the new HARRY POTTERRRRRRRRRR trailer is out.
its so dark, it sent chills down my spine!
click here to watch
i dunno why i cant embed it.
stupid youtube.

im gonna meet the twins in less than 10hours to go MUSTAFA!
goodnight.

the gods.

after chatting with wiwi,
i came to a conclusion.

BODONI is FIRST-LOVE;


HELVETICA is FONT-GOD;


and UNCLE KARL is FASHION-FAIRY.


HEH. nerd talk, i know.
too bad i can only use arial, courier,georgia, times, trebuchet, verdana and webdings here.

ok, im really f*ing bored.

WHEN ARE MY FAV TWINS COMING BACK?!
I WANNA GO FLY KITE!

PR5

ARE WESLEY AND DANIEL TOGETHER?! OMG!


imagine, my fav and fenny's fav.
oh hai.

UPDATE*
source: Head of bravo programming Andy Cohen just let it slip on the project runway after show (*live*) on bravotv.com and christian looked a little apprehensive (if that is possible). He also confirmed that Wesley is indeed dating Daniel by telling them to "get married in California and be the first project runway supercouple"




love wesley!

grandpa's 93th.

happy birthday to my deeearest grandpa.
glorious 93th!
pics from the dinner:

nicole and her flower-girl dress
i look distorted.


im still "job-hunting" and label'ing myself as fresh-graduate.
how long more do i have to take this?!
im freaking outttt!
i wish someone would give me some answers.